Sea of Me

Hopeless doesn't begin to describe
the "here" in which I find myself
Choking on deadly thoughts
Desperate because of fears
Dragged below by the strength
of "I must be" and "never enough"

I am drowning in a sea of me
Currents of expectations thrust
Jagged rocks of worry maim
Predators lurking in dark masks
I'm sinking down, always down, almost gone
Who can save me from me?

"This ends here. You are Mine!
I will give you Truth
I will rescue you every time
I will hold out My hand
No matter how long it takes to save you
from the raging sea of you"

Abba, cold and weak I come
Plucked out again by Your grace
I'm still with breath, yet so ashamed
How many times has it now been?
"No matter that, child, come
 Let Me restore. Allow me to renew."

So I sit in the cool
The birds sing me their calm
The rain ministers- God over all
Everything around me lifts my eyes
I'm no longer in the sea of me
for I now can see You.